time to get back on the coffee
i know that john mayer is pop. some people don't dig pop. but i have a stupid mouth just like he does.
i had a really hard day yesterday. and the day before. in fact it's been a hard month. maybe it's seasonal, or maybe it's just being a female. whatever. anyway, these hard days bled over onto some people around me that i really love. and i realized that the people i love the most and the people that love me the most are the ones who i "allow" to see this side of me. yeah, because that's a real privalege that should only be saved for the people who have taken the extreme risk to love me and be let in. i should treat the people who have taken the risk to love me the best, and show them the best side of me.
i become this person so hideous that it would make jesus drink gin straight out of the cat dish.
i didn't make the choice to love yesterday. or the day before. i think that my decision to get off coffee just isn't working out.
i had a really hard day yesterday. and the day before. in fact it's been a hard month. maybe it's seasonal, or maybe it's just being a female. whatever. anyway, these hard days bled over onto some people around me that i really love. and i realized that the people i love the most and the people that love me the most are the ones who i "allow" to see this side of me. yeah, because that's a real privalege that should only be saved for the people who have taken the extreme risk to love me and be let in. i should treat the people who have taken the risk to love me the best, and show them the best side of me.
i become this person so hideous that it would make jesus drink gin straight out of the cat dish.
i didn't make the choice to love yesterday. or the day before. i think that my decision to get off coffee just isn't working out.
posted by Anonymous at 2:15 AM
4 Comments:
just remember that even if you feel like jesus wants to take some shots out of a cat's dish, he still loves you. even at your most hideous.
Props for the Anne Lamott reference, Schmauler! Sometimes I wonder whether or not people mostly love each other precisely because we can be such marvelous, original, thoroughly real pains in the ass...
Still love your honest struggle.
Ditto what whimsical hue says - and the people who love you the most, love you BECAUSE of who and what you are. Bad AND good - don't beat up on yourself - the rest of the world will be only to happy to do it for you! Treasure the ones you love, and know that we treasure you back.
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